Biore Baking Soda

So I was given this product to test from Influenster. I received two products; one was a powder, Baking Soda Cleansing Scrub. This product smells so refreshing and the way the baking soda reacts with the water on your skin feels simply amazing. I love the way my skin feels after using this product. The second product is called Baking Soda Pore Cleanser, it also smells nice. I find it leaves my skin feeling clean and refreshed. It has small scrubbing beads that help clean out the pores and I love it. I feel I still need to use it more to see long term effects, but so far this is a product I would definitely recommend.

I just wanna be happy

I wish someone out there could explain to me, just what is wrong with me. I live to far away from home, not going to college, and don't know what I want in life. I don't know what I wan't to be, I'm definately not ready for college, Im confused, and this whole post probably won't make any sense. DAMNIT....why can't I do anything right?? . My heart hurts so bad, like really really bad, kinda empty. I'd like to punch something, I have so much anger, guilt, regret, confusion, every emotion nobody really wants to feel all rolled into one. DAMNIT. Maybe I just miss home right now, and all of this is nothing. Maybe if I get those days off, see my family, this will all go away, maybe thats all I need. I don't deserve him, or Adam for that matter. I hate myself. For what Im doing to those who love me, always pushing them away. Im sorry. Life is so hard. And I make it harder for myself. Don't trust me with your heart. Ill Break it. But don't worry, I break my own in the process. Im really at a loss of words right now, I have nothing to say about anything anymore. One day Ill figure it all out. I hope.

Many Changes. So Little Time.

So my last post is about Adam, but my information says, Patrick. No that's no mistake. April 27, 2008, Adam kicked me out. I was living with him. Sometime after Valentines Day, he asked me to move in with him, and I did. I then started school, and met Patrick. Pat and I became friends, and I started to realize maybe I didn't love Adam the way I had thought I did. Well I ended things, which eventually ended with me getting the boot. April 28Th, Patrick and I started dating. I know, you think to soon, but I'd disagree. Adam and I had been broken up a bit before he had kicked me out, he just couldn't handle me living there, and not being with him anymore. I also didn't want to make Patrick wait anymore, I was afraid of losing him to someone else, even though he said I wouldn't have. Patrick is amazing, I love him to death. It's been 10 months now, that Pat & I have been dating, and everything is going amazing. I've applied to 5 colleges and I've already been accepted into Northern. Pat & I are going down to Timmins to check out the college, in April. I'm super excited about college. Also were looking for an apartment, so Pat and I will be living together, which will be amazing. I'm really tired of being apart from him so much. He was in an accident over the summer and totaled his car so he can't drive out to see me, unless of course his parents let him use the truck which isn't too often, considering it's winter and the roads are usually not the greatest, of course Stisted is not so great any time of the year. It is better than nothing though, and I'm not complaining.

Valentines Day.

So lets see, it all started Monday, February 12Th, Adam asked me for my address, he was going to send me something for Valentines Day. Tuesday I spoke with him, yada yada. Wednesday, Valentines Day, I spoke to him on MSN around lunch when he was on his break at work, and when he got offline he said, I'll call you later tonight. So I decided to clean what I call my room while I waited for his phone call. So there I am pulling shit from underneath my bed, around 9:00pm, when someone comes up behind me, I thought it was my brother so my first response was, "what the fuck are you doing." then I kinda see Adams jacket and I'm like "oh my god, what the fuck are you doing here?" I was all confused at that point, but he surprised me, he drove all the way from Parry Sound, in the blizzardish weather to surprise me, not only that, but he got me an awesome giant teddy bear, and my favorite "Pot Of Gold" chocolates. What a sweetheart, I almost cried at one point because I didn't know what to say, NO ONE, and I mean no one has ever done anything close to that, I mean last year I got ditched, by my now ex-boyfriend, like come on. So I was really surprised, it was awesome, he even missed work the next day, the cool part was, when he left Thursday night, I left with him =], so yeah, I had a really good Valentines Day.

The Weekend.

So, Friday, Adam got here around 12:00am. Uh, we went to bed. Saturday, we got up, and headed down to St.Catherines to get Lindsay and Chris. Got there around 12:00pm. Chris wasn't around, so it was just Lindsay, Adam & I who went down to Toronto. Monster Jam! Getting into parking, sucked. We finally got into the Sky Dome, and went down into the pit to check out all the monster trucks and so on, got a few pictures there. After about a half hour we went to look for a restaurant, that was a big mistake, it was fucking freezing, and every place had at least a 60 minute wait, fuck that, we just headed back to the Sky Dome, and got some food there. Uh, after that we sat down and watched the show, it wasn't the most exciting thing in the world, but it was still pretty awesome. Got lots of photos, and I'm going to soon stick them on my website, www.dar3-to-3nter.piczo.com . After it was over, it took about 30 minutes to get out of the stupid parking space, not the lot, the space, sucked. I felt like shit on the way home, probably because of all the dust and dirt I inhaled during the show. Toronto sucks, never want to drive around there. We finally got out of Toronto, around 11:30, maybe. Got back to St.Catherines, around, 12:30, 1:00am. Stepped in the house for a couple seconds, went to Cheers, I wasn't allowed in there, due to the fact I'm a minor until September, damn it, at least it's only months now. Uh went back to Lindsay's not to long after, and basically, just got fucked up. Went to bed Sunday mourning around 8:30am. I slept for like and hour, and was fucking still a little fucked, but managed to fall back asleep, until about 3:00pm. Uh, Lindsay bought food, we ate, and around 8:00pm, Adam & I said our goodbyes, and left for my place. Got here, we sat around for a bit, we got food, and then sadly he had to take off. 10:30pm, I went to bed, and that was it, I was out like a light. Now, I think I may be sick, and I have to continue my job search, I'm going to go to an agency to get some help, tomorrow, for the rest of the day I'm going to relax, my nose is fucking running and sore, my body is killing me, and I'm tired as fuck.

Job Interview.

Yup, I had a job interview today, at 2:00pm. I got there around 1:45pm, and waited till about 2:30pm, before someone had done something, I then was brought into a room, where I sat for a couple minutes, then someone got me an "application." Which then, I filled it out. Hours there, are 1:00pm - 9:00pm, and, I may have to work weekends, Saturday and Sunday. Which is not what I want, that may mean less time with Adam. So, I'm hoping I don't get the job. I know I can turn it down, but I mean that's 10$ an hour. Damn it. I find out next week, if they call, or if they don't call, either way it sucks.

P.S. I Miss Adam.<3

Jobbing It.

So, just over a week now I have been looking for a job. I actually got a call today, he seemed so interested, up until he asked me if I had a car. Damn it! It's times like these I wish I wanted my licence when I was 16, Damn it. Well, at least I got a call, brings my hopes up a little more. Anyways, this isn't going to be a long blog, I'm just extremely bored. My friend Colin is suppose to get out of jail tomorrow, I'm kind of hoping he does, cause he actually wants to get together and chill, give's me something to do while I'm waiting for a job offer. Well, that's all for now I guess.